2017 Dec Journalling

01/12/17 F

Dream Journal

• I don't remember much… but Holly and me were in a school and we were looking for a place to hang out (or talk? I couldn’t remember). We used the elevator and discovered some deserted places… at last we got to a roof playground and Pooi To students were there. It was raining and they poured water at me (?) or trying to hurt me (shoot me with water intentionally? I forgot). All I remembered was I was angry and grapped one of their waist and stared angry at them (I remembered Katy being there… but there were also boys (?) or naughty students). I was glad Anne called me and I woke up. I didn't know what to do after directly expressing my anger.

Life Journal

• I woke up to Anne's call this morning. We read the Bible together and prayed. Then we shared some of out thoughts and bid goodbye.
• Then I called Kelly, and talked with her while looking for Starbucks. At last I went to McDonald's. Read some chapters and then went to the park and then KFC.
• Met my target, went back and had dinner in a good mood until Anne called… I felt like nothing comparing to her. Why do I need to make this comparison God? Her actions are so fast it was like soaring… I felt like shit now. What do I do God? What do I do?
• I have to fill myself up too… Is this what you want me to do?
• I want to transform God… I want to transform. You want servants right? Do you want me?
• I'll wake up at five and do the confession. I want to do the confession.